I've been so distant I know love
I've just been feeling everything
And when I'm hurtin' I go numb
Then I stop feelin' anything

And when I'm spiralin' out of control
I won't let you in
I get so bitter and put up my walls
And hurt you again

You know I shot myself down
Just to block out the pain
And I've been tryna be better
But I keep fading away
And when I'm caught up in my emotions
I'll push you out again
'Cause when I hate myself enough
I hurt the ones I love
I hurt the ones I love

I get so caught in my moods, oh
And say some things I don't mean
And I'm sorry I'm defensive
When you're only tryna help me
I can't help it
I hate how I can bе

'Cause when I'm spiralin' out of control
I won't let you in
I gеt so bitter and put up my walls
And hurt you again

You know I shot myself down
Just to block out the pain
And I've been tryna be better
But I keep fading away
And when I'm caught up in my emotions
I'll push you out again
'Cause when I hate myself enough
I hurt the ones I love
I hurt the ones I love, yeah

And I'm the one to blame
I'm the one to blame
I'm the one to blame
I'm the one to blame

You know I shot myself down
Just to block out the pain
And I've been tryna be better
But I keep fading away
And when I'm caught up in my emotions
I'll push you out again
'Cause when I hate myself enough
I hurt the ones I love
I hurt the ones I love, yeah

I hurt the ones I love